Nonsensical Ramblings of An Abnormal Girl

Will a cheapo facial cleanser really work?

2011-10-04T00:20:00.002+08:00

While I can't remember the first facial product I owed, I know I've been purchasing and trying countless products since I was about 13 or 14, struggling to keep my acne-prone and oily skin at bay. As someone who is very experimental yet particular about the stuff I slap on my face, I am constantly researching on the latest facial care products and seeking feedback from people around me. Word of mouth happen to work effectively on me. Whenever a blogger I follow or a celebrity I fancy makes mention of a product, I would dash out to the stores to get one!

Upon influence by a colleague, I bought this under $10 facial cleanser from Watsons today. Honestly, I don't believe such budget cleanser would work for my skin, having bought false hopes from this price tag range. They were all too harsh and do nothing as claimed. I often end up feeling disappointed and discarding the product away. However, my colleague could not be more convincing - he had claimed that this particular cleanser makes his skin less oily and he has lesser breakouts. Since it was under $10, I thought...why not give it a try?

This is the above mentioned budget cleanser:

So...this is what the product claims to do:
1. Cleans into pores to remove dirt & 90% of oil
2. Acne Reduction Technology helps prevent acne
3. Skin Nutrient Formula helps lighten dark spots and acne marks
4. Minimizes appearance of pores
5. Smoothens skin without dry feeling

I ran by the ingredients with cosdna.com. So far so good, nothing major that can clog or irritate my skin. Basically, the formula contains alot of emulsifier and moisturizer. I didn't like the fact that it contains alcohol though it seemed to be added into the formula minimally. Judging from the ingredients, I highly doubt I'm gonna get fairer or "sparkling white" just depending on this. http://www.cosdna.com/eng/cosmetic_bc8b62832.html

Anyhoo, today is the first day I've tried this cleanser. It definitely cleans thoroughly and leaves a squeaky clean feeling...something I'm not quite used to actually! My previous gel-based cleansers gave me a soft and supple feel, the total opposite. With this cleanser, I do feel a little "over-cleanse" and I believe a moisturizer would be mandatory. To add on...I'm experiencing skin peeling right now, which is extremely horrible looking! My makeup wouldn't even stay on, rahhh! But don't be mistaken...I'm not blaming Nivea for this. The skin peeling must be due to the MA Serum (mandelic acid formulation) Dr. Chua prescribed me.

To be fair, I'm gonna use this Nivea cleanser regularly for a few weeks and see if my skin makes progressed. So, stay tuned!

If you're wondering, this is what my skincare regime will plan out to be:
Cleanse - Nivea Sparkling White Acne Oil Control Cleanser ($10.55)
Tone - Therapeutic Dermatologic Formula Mild Astringent ($47.00)
Enhance - Therapeutic Dermatologic C-Scape Serum
($73.00)
Moisturize - Seba Med Clear Face Care Gel
Sun Protection - Therapeutic Dermatologic Formula PA+++ UVA/UVB SPF 50+ Sunscreen (Can't remember)

2011-09-30T22:41:00.002+08:00

I miss being awesome.

2011-06-19T00:10:00.000+08:00

I feel depressed lately. I hate how things are now.
我心有不甘, 不过我不够勇敢.

轨迹

2011-04-16T23:26:00.000+08:00

我会发着呆然后忘记你
接着紧紧闭上眼
想着那一天会有人代替
让我不再想念你

我会发着呆然后微微笑
接着紧紧闭上眼
又想那一年你温柔的脸
在我忘记之前

心里那眼泪模糊了视线
你已经看不见

2011-04-15T00:02:00.001+08:00

And who do you think you are?
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

Why is it SO fucking hard for me, yet so easy for you

2011-03-28T19:33:00.002+08:00

My mind is poisoned and my heart hurts.
I'm lost without you.

I swear that I can go on forever again
Please let me know that my one bad day will end
I will go down as your lover, your friend
Give me your lips and with one kiss we begin

Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you

I'll leave my room open till sunrise for you
I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you
Where are you now I can hear footsteps I'm dreaming
And if you will, keep me from waking to believe this

Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you

Chill & Relax

2011-03-20T23:43:00.001+08:00

2011-03-13T14:14:00.001+08:00

Something's missing.

2011-01-23T18:43:00.001+08:00

Let go.

2011-01-13T23:38:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, while rushing to catch the coming train, I slipped and fell in a "half-split" position (with one knee hitting the floor and one leg stretched) on the platform infront of at least 5 people. Today, on my ride, this indian man with shifty eyes shoved his handphone into my face out of the blue.
His phone display read "Pls zip up your pants".

FML.

2010-12-31T01:44:00.001+08:00

The TV economy is just bizzare.
I came across this article "Who Are TV's Top Earners?" and found out that the earning of a drama series actor can range from $30,000 to more than $400,000 per episode. So if your show is a hit, you get to demand more. Its the HUGE difference that surprises me. You see, Oprah Winfrey earns $315million a year, whereas Jay Leno earns much lesser (in fact, 14 times more) - $25million a year. And what?! Ryan Seacrest of American Idol fame commands $15million a year just for that few opening/ending lines in those sparse episodes? 很好赚 lei!

Holy Grail #2

2010-12-27T23:27:00.001+08:00

Here we have......A gift I got this x'mas which deserves my raving!

This new item is my current favourite - simply loving the sweet refreshing cranberry scent and smooth texture of this lip balm! I personally find the scent irresistible and yummy! Some lip balms leave your lips feeling greasy...as though there's a thick layer of oil on top..and even make applying lip colors difficult because the color will just smear. Kiehl's doesn't. Instead, it soothes and protects your lips in one application. I remember seeing it on beauty magazine reviews and it was one of the top recommendations but thought it was abit pricey for such small tube.

Comes in 15ml tube at maybe less than S$15? Go try it if this is within your budget.

Random

2010-12-10T00:24:00.000+08:00

Was browsing through my calendar on my phone when I saw a reminder on 13/12/2010 titled "1962 Lim Cheng Lok" and set for yearly repeat until 31/12/2100.

This is kinda freaky. Or did I got conned into buying a 2nd hand phone?!

2010-12-04T19:35:00.002+08:00

这点小伤口很快就愈合
留下浅浅疤痕当做纪念多幽默
只是小伤口那又为什么
随时碰就随时痛

This has never changed

2010-11-25T00:06:00.000+08:00

I need a constant factor, human beings aside. Because they MIA. Because they are never there in desperate times. Because they always leave, in the end.

2010-11-24T01:49:00.002+08:00

What's the formula for happiness?

The Man Who Can't Be Moved

2010-11-21T23:11:00.001+08:00

Going Back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand
Saying, "If you see this girl can you tell her where I am?"

Some try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense but what else can I do
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you

'cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving

Policeman says, "Son you can't stay here"
I said, "There's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year"
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go

'cause If one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving,
I'm not moving, I'm not moving

People talk about the guy that's waiting on a girl
There are no holes in his shoes but a big hole in his world

Maybe I'll get famous as the man who can't be moved
Maybe you wont mean to but you'll see me on the news
And you'll come running to the corner
'cause you'll know it's just for you
I'm the man who can't be moved

[Chorus 2x]

Going back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move

I'm 21

2010-11-15T22:10:00.000+08:00

and I cry too often these days.

The Social Network

2010-11-02T10:11:00.001+08:00

Lawyer: "Mr. Zuckerberg, do I have your full attention?"
Mark Zuckerberg: "No."
Lawyer: "Do you think I deserve it?"
Mark Zuckerberg: "What?"
Lawyer: "Do you think I deserve your full attention?"
Mark: "I had to swear an oath before we began this deposition, and I don't want to perjure myself, so I have a legal obligation to say no."
Lawyer: "Okay...no. You don't think I deserve your attention."
Mark Zuckerberg: "I think if your clients want to sit on my shoulders and call themselves tall, they have the right to give it a try, but there's no requirement that I enjoy sitting here listening to people lie. You have part of my attention - you have the minimum amount. The rest of my attention is back at the offices of Facebook, where my colleagues and I are doing things that no one in this room, including and especially your clients, are intellectually or creatively capable of doing. Did I adequately answer your condescending question?

2010-10-22T00:00:00.000+08:00

I've never told a lie, and that makes me a liar ; I've never made a bet, but we gamble with desire ; I've never lit a match, with intent to start a fire, but recently the flames are getting out of control.

2010-10-20T13:02:00.001+08:00

Hanging by the thread - you might as well kill me

2010-10-14T01:20:00.000+08:00

我要相信你是爱我的
我要相信你是勇敢的
我烦时间是最残酷的
我怎么等

My 21st Invitation

2010-10-13T03:21:00.000+08:00

Please refer for more info and RSVP at http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=149211655119935

2010-10-01T21:34:00.004+08:00

請不要分了以後還記得親吻過的承諾
妳的永久已不屬於我
默默低頭那時我很多話哽在喉嚨
妳的笑妳的快樂
或許我愛太多想太多
我能感受
他比我適合
愛放了手
我偽裝冷漠
逼妳先說分手
請原諒我
原諒我不成熟
不愛妳是藉口
好讓妳離開我
請原諒我
好想自私將妳佔有
妳的寂寞就給我承受　
換妳過更好的生活

請不要分了以後還記得親吻過的承諾
妳的永久已不屬於我
默默低頭那时我很多話哽在喉嚨
妳的笑妳的快樂
或許我愛太多想太多
我能感受
他比我適合
愛放了手
我偽裝冷漠
逼妳先說分手

請原諒我
原諒我不成熟
不愛妳是藉口
好讓妳離開我 nono
請原諒我
好想自私將妳佔有
妳的寂寞就給我承受　
換妳過更好的生活

愛過恨過哭過也笑過
親吻過妳的脆弱
其實我比誰都要懦弱
原諒我
必須假裝愛錯
別讓時間逗留
我怕說不出口喔~

原諒我
沒有解釋太多
心痛
別無所求
徹底忘了我
愛原來有捨得

我難過
我才懂

The world sees you for WHAT you are

2010-10-01T03:30:00.000+08:00

I've been told that I not only have a banana face, but also jackie chan nose and fat arms.
Even my birth marks are flaws. This, I only realised recently.
I'm also no where near C cup.
Apparently, I'm also tall and big to many people. Well, I'm not sure where to put "big" but I suppose it refers to fat but not flabby (I'm a pessimistic with slight positivity)?

Argh. Whatever. Why are people around such critics? They aren't perfection themselves.

2010-10-01T03:22:00.000+08:00

Well yea, this was my idea of protection and security.

Disappointment

2010-09-29T00:06:00.000+08:00

This date marks one of the biggest failure in my life so far...and inability to keep my cool.
I flunked my 1st TP attempt.
Mount kerb, strike kerb, forgot to release handbrake, wrong signal.............I'm fucking BRILLIANT la!!!
FML. :'(

2010-09-24T04:01:00.001+08:00

I miss this time last year but things change and life happens.

2010-08-30T21:04:00.001+08:00

Oh baby dont you know I suffer?
Oh baby can you hear me moan?
You caught me under false pretenses
How long before you let me go?

2010-08-23T22:24:00.000+08:00

“I was not delivered unto this world in defeat, nor does failure course in my veins. I am not a sheep waiting to be prodded by my shepherd. I am a lion and I refuse to talk, to walk, to sleep with the sheep. I will hear not those who weep and complain, for their disease is contagious. Let them join the sheep. The slaughterhouse of failure is not my destiny" - Og Mandino.

傻瓜

2010-08-14T17:25:00.002+08:00

傻瓜我們都一樣
被愛情傷了又傷
相信這個他不一樣
却又再一次受傷

傻瓜我們都一樣
受了傷却不投降
相信付出會有代價
代價只是一句
傻瓜

Uncertain

2010-08-13T00:48:00.000+08:00

Do you deserve my trust?
Actions & words show. So, guess not. Not even when you swear on your death my boy...

I'm a sucker for love

2010-08-12T17:01:00.000+08:00

With devotion, commitment and sacrifices, what did I get in return?
Nothing...
He left me a broken heart that I'm still struggling to mend.
I detest myself for being so prone to self destructiveness and for having grown so dependent on an individual.

I kept trying to surround myself with people and activities...it helped a little.
Yet, I can feel so alone and a one second hug is all it would take to make me feel contented again.
If I looked cheerful and unaffected, I must be the master of con men. The fact is, sometimes, I feel like my heart is gonna explode into billion pieces.

At the age of 21, I have failed in 3 relationships.
To some of you, 3 may not be a big figure. To me, the 3 contributed to who I'm today.
The 3 taught me things - I'm less selfish, I learn to give and take, I gain knowledge and new skills, I love myself more, I learn to respect, I learn to trust.
It's the last relationship I treasured the most and fight hopelessly stubbornly madly for. But unfortunately, I had lost a lover and a very good friend in the end.

Should I forgive and forget? Should I push him away?
For now, I doubt I have the capacity to love.
Don't get me wrong. I believe I'm slowly but surely moving on and floating on OK.
Till I'm ready...I need to be loved, to be cared for, to be pampered. I know, selfish right?

I miss him, I really do.
Please take that feeling away.

Grandma

2010-07-21T01:40:00.001+08:00

My heart aches to see her in this state - the aging spots, sagging skin, bruises on her arms, the iv drip, half paralzed body. Her face is still bruised, an after effect from a fall.

She doesn't remember people and often mixed up our names...all except my mum's. She tries to speak but most of the time she's unable to project her voice, not even for more than 2 words. She now feeds on nothing except some milk formulation. She yearned so much for food she conned a biscuit out of the maid. Due to the drugs she's on, she looks like she's gonna doze off half the time. Her arms swell yet she insisted on wearing her wedding bands on her fingers.

I wish I could do something...but there really isn't. All I can help and do is to massage her legs.
It's unrealistic to wish for her to get well at this point.
I've come to terms with death. I know I'm only 21. But it's a fact that when you're old, you get sick, then you die. I often question the purpose of living. We all die in the end. It's just a matter of when, what we have done when we were alive and how we have lived.

If I know Jack Kevorkian, maybe I could be more useful and Grandma wouldn't have to suffer.
I just pray for it to be a peaceful journey for my grandmother....

The Pretty Reckless

2010-07-05T01:46:00.003+08:00

Take me, I'm alive

Never was a girl with a wicked mind
But everything looks better, when the sun goes down

I had everything
Opportunities for eternity
And I could belong to the night
Your eyes, your eyes
I can see in your eyes
Your eyes

You make me wanna die
I'll never be good enough
You make me wanna die
And everything you love will burn up in the light
Every time I look inside your eyes
Make me wanna die

Taste me, drink my soul
Show me all the things that I shouldn't know
And there's a new moon on the rise

I had everything
Opportunities for eternity
And I could belong to the night
Your eyes, your eyes
I can see in your eyes
Your eyes everything in your eyes, your eyes

You make me wanna die
I'll never be good enough
You make me wanna die
And everything you love will burn up in the light
Every time I look inside your eyes (burning in the light)
Make me wanna die

I'll die for you my love, my love
I'll lie for you my love, my love (make me wanna die)
I'll steal for you, my love, my love (make me wanna die)
I'll die for you my love, my love
We'll burn up in the light

Every time I look inside your eyes
I'm burning in the light
inside your eyes
I'm burning in the light
inside your eyes
Make me wanna die

Oops, you got caught!

2010-06-29T00:44:00.000+08:00

Today at a meeting of a rather formal setting, by accident, I learnt that when you're rich and successful, you have plenty of time and porn sites are your top visited sites.

Rachie has gone crazy

2010-06-08T23:08:00.000+08:00

I'm on the verge of breaking down.
Seriously, how the fuck do you finish 12 EDMs in less than one night!!!!!!!!!!!! *Exasperated sigh*
Omg, can my workload stop piling one one day?!!

@(#(^@#&KNN@*&#W*@&NABEI700@&@*8

2010-05-27T23:22:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling rather depressed despite the holiday, further fueled by the 2 funerals under my block...
I would feel better if there's someone who understands and willing to listen.

But there's none.

2010-05-27T23:21:00.000+08:00

I feel restricted in many ways.
Because I'm a female, a gender associated with vulnerability. Because I'm only 20+, too young to command respect. Because I don't have a degree, I can only look at honors student with envy & inferiority. Because I'm not rich, I do it the hard way. Then someone will argue, that I spent too much time finding excuses for these reasons and should focus on overcoming these issues instead.

Monogram Eden Neo...

2010-05-02T03:04:00.005+08:00

I found a new lust! Sorry boyfriend :p

Note to Stan: please stop playing poker (and losing/ depriving me 5 servings worth of foie gras @ Perle Noire) and send me pictures from Stereophonics when you see this <3

Ok Go - This Too Shall Pass

2010-05-01T21:29:00.002+08:00

Woah. Epic music video.

Kaya Scodelario

2010-04-30T02:19:00.002+08:00

What I'm Thinking About @ 2:03AM

2010-04-28T02:04:00.000+08:00

Eva Green

2010-04-26T03:42:00.001+08:00

You Asked Me Why

2010-04-26T03:35:00.002+08:00

The reason why I have not been blogging is mainly because I'm happily attached and have nothing to complain or rant on this space here.

Rachie's Google Map - Bangkok

2010-03-23T00:39:00.003+08:00

View Bangkok <3 in a larger map

TADAAAAAAAA~!
Look at all the yellow baskets! Yellow baskets = shopping spots I plan to go. SOOOO many!!! Hahaha :D
CAN'T WAIT

The Stones - Across The Overpass

2010-03-21T03:13:00.000+08:00

Someday you'll find me standing in your path
Somewhere deep in the background of some photograph
And you'll see your name scrawled across the overpass

Simple's hard enough now anyway.

.......................................................................
I fell in love with this song when I first heard it from the movie "Strictly Sexual". Great song to end the movie. I waited patiently for the credits to roll till I found the song title! Good movie btw. I watched the movie half-heartedly, thinking it's probably gonna suck, but it definitely was better than expected.

"You wouldn't kick me out or nothin if I told you I love you, would you?"

Awwwwww....So sweet. I nearly cried =/

Holy Grail

2010-03-13T00:48:00.002+08:00

Hello

2010-03-09T22:09:00.001+08:00

I <3 picnics!

Portfolio

2010-03-09T17:47:00.000+08:00

Over the weekend, I finally got my portfolio up live.
It's at this link.

The Lovely Bones

2010-03-09T17:38:00.002+08:00

Becareful when you shake hands

2010-03-07T23:10:00.001+08:00

Being free, idling at home...sets me thinking.

Why do people change as quick as a chameleon?
Not even a subtle change of color, not a chance. They change face almost as fast as a blink of an eye.
Right in the beginning when I entered company A...What I was taught was all about covering your own ass before anything.
Speak with your brain and not with your heart. (I tend to be too straight forward and speak without thinking)
"Interpersonal" communication within an organization is nonsense. There's absolutely nothing "Personal" in it. Just backstabbing, mind fucking, twisted words & plenty of fabricated stories.
Today, you shake hands with somebody, you gotta count your fingers to make sure you got five fingers back.

Then again, I shouldn't judge...till I have a decade of experience in the industry.
I wonder what it's like if I were in someone else's shoes, in some other positions, in some other companies.
Once bitten, twice shy. Better luck in my 2nd job.

On a lighter note, I have a morning interview tomorrow and also basic theory doesn't seem so tough after all. Hopefully, I'll be able to fulfill my 2010 resolution by end of the year...which is a driving license!

I have never done this before, but it feels good that I can now announce I'm in love with Stanley Aw. <3

Don't Believe Anything That's Said

2010-03-04T22:21:00.001+08:00

"If she can make you, she can break you too"

One Time

2010-03-02T16:07:00.002+08:00

Your my One love
My one heart
My one life for sure

I'm freeeeeee!

2010-03-02T16:01:00.001+08:00

No more mindfucking bullshit!

DEUS UNUS ME IUDICABIT
DEUS UNUS ME IUDICARE POTEST
NULLUM DESIDERIUM

Reoffender

2010-02-22T20:51:00.001+08:00

Keeping up appearances
Keeping up with the Jones'
Fooling my selfish heart
Going through the motions But I'm fooling myself
I'm fooling myself
Cause you say you love me
And then you do it again, you do it again
You say your sorry's
And then you do it again, you do it again

Everybody thinks you're well
Everybody thinks I'm ill
Watching me fall apart
Falling under your spell

But you're fooling yourself
You're fooling yourself
Cause you say you love me
And then you do it again, you do it again
You say your sorry's
And then you do it again, you do it again
And again and again and again and again

But you're fooling yourself
You're fooling yourself
Cause you say you love me
And then you do it again, you do it again
You say your sorry's
And then you do it again, you do it again
You say you love me
And then you do it again, you do it again
You say your sorry's
And then you do it again, you do it again
And again and again and again and again

The long awaited weekend!

2010-02-01T22:19:00.001+08:00

I went prawning and had (horrifying) fish spa for the first time in my life! Yay :D

I don't mean to be rude...

2010-01-18T14:26:00.001+08:00

But beware of grunchy old woman in office.

:(

Stop Crying Your Heart Out

2010-01-09T23:07:00.001+08:00

Rachel Siah needs to stop being a cry baby.

2010-01-01T21:59:00.001+08:00

I can't hear your voice,
Do I have a choice?

You're sinking below,
I'm using my force.

I'm hoping with chance,
You might take this dance.

You're my number one guy.

Number one guy.
Number, number, number, number, number one, one, one, one, one guy.

Random Rant

2009-12-29T23:22:00.002+08:00

Xmas eve & Xmas was good. Good company, good food, good break.
Good means...Good. Pardon my limited vocabulary.
Coincidentally, I got Ferragamo hair clips from two individuals for xmas. They must think I have ugly hair that needs to cover up or something.
Why didn't anyone get me an organizer for next year? Something I actually need. I Need to plan. I Need to write down to-do-lists. I Need to record birthdays. Either age is catching up or mind is really occupied, I tend to forget things very often nowadays. This is rather unprofessional of me.

I hardly come online for personal use nowadays. Probably cause my work requires me to go online so often I get nauseous logging on to Google search engine. And the reason why I'm online and here blogging was because I'm kinda waiting. And waiting sucks. Oh god, I've lost my ability to blog I think. What else to write. Hmmmm...and I'm still waiting.

Besides waiting, I'm also procrastinating a lot. For instant, getting a driving license.
My sales forecast for Jan 2010...that's another headache. And I feel like I'm losing the momentum, I'm not as driven and my figures on the board are obvious evidence that I'm becoming stagnant. Need. to. improve. But. How?
Recently, I found out I've grown 3cm. I'm now 1.73m. Not sure to be happy or sad. Cause I've also put on weight. Need. to. lose. weight. Fight. temptation.

Oh no, I saw something I shouldn't have seen. You big fat liar. Facebook tells.

Not waiting anymore.

2009-12-21T07:53:00.000+08:00

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

2009-11-29T18:03:00.000+08:00

Thursday night, everything's fine, except you've got that look in your eye
When I'm telling a story and you find it boring,
You're thinking of something to say.
You go along with it then drop it and humiliate me in front of our friends.

Then I'll use that voice that you find annoying and say something like
"Yeah, intelligent input, darling, why don't you just have another beer then?"

Then you'll call me a bitch
And everyone we're with will be embarrassed,
And I won't give a shit.

My fingertips are holding onto the cracks in our foundation,
And I know that I should let go, but I can't.
And every time we fight I know it's not right,
Every time that you're upset and I smile.
I know I should forget, but I can't.

You said I must eat so many lemons
'cause I am so bitter.
I said
"I'd rather be with your friends mate 'cause they are much fitter."

Yes, it was childish and you got aggressive,
And I must admit that I was a bit scared,
But it gives me thrills to wind you up.

My fingertips are holding onto the cracks in our foundation,
And I know that I should let go, but I can't.
And every time we fight I know it's not right,
Every time that you're upset and I smile.
I know I should forget, but I can't.

Your face is pasty 'cause you've gone and got so wasted, what a surprise.
Don't want to look at your face 'cause it's making me sick.
You've gone and got sick on my trainers,
I only got these yesterday.
Oh my gosh, I cannot be bothered with this.

Well, I'll leave you there 'til the morning,
And I purposely won't turn the heating on
And dear god, I hope I'm not stuck with this one.

My fingertips are holding onto the cracks in our foundation,
And I know that I should let go, but I can't.
And every time we fight I know it's not right,
Every time that you're upset and I smile.
I know I should forget, but I can't.

And every time we fight I know it's not right,
Every time that you're upset and I smile.
I know I should forget, but I can't.

And every time we fight I know it's not right,
Every time that you're upset and I smile.
I know I should forget, but I can't.

2009-11-25T18:28:00.001+08:00

:) :) :) :) :)

2009-11-17T22:27:00.002+08:00

~~FUCK UALLLLLLLL!!!!!!~~

"Hi my dear...."

Crossing to twenties in 10 days

2009-11-05T00:54:00.002+08:00

I'm all ready to fight dark circles, crow's feet, lower metabolism rate and any effects of aging.

=/

2009-10-18T11:55:00.000+08:00

It's sooooooo hard to get mad at a cute boy!

2009-10-10T21:39:00.000+08:00

Some people fall in love and touch the sky
Some people fall in love and find quicksand
I hover somewhere in between
I swear, I can’t make up my mind

Champagne Supernova

2009-10-02T17:02:00.002+08:00

Some day you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky

Chill

2009-09-29T00:28:00.002+08:00

Omg my head's ringing.

2009-09-28T01:31:00.001+08:00

I wanna go to bangkok.
Who's on???!!!!

FML

2009-09-14T23:14:00.001+08:00

Today I lost my blingbling ear stud, my E71 cover, and someone close.

Mum's Bday

2009-09-13T23:07:00.003+08:00

2009-09-10T23:07:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, you already know the ending of a movie but you adopt the wait-and-see-attitude and continue watching it anyway.
Most movies have happy endings. Simply because happy endings appeal to the mass. That's how these movies make it to the box offices.
But we don't. We don't belong to happy endings.

I forgot how amazing a stranger can waltz into your world and make everything once so very familiar, foreign.
I'm not myself.

Part of the ocean

2009-09-09T18:51:00.000+08:00

The story is about a little wave, bobbing along in the ocean, having a grand old time. He's enjoying the wind and the fresh air - until he notices the other waves in front of him, crashing against the shore.

"My God, this is terrible," the wave says. "Look what's going to happen to me!"

Then along comes another wave. It sees the first wave, looking grim, and it says to him, "Why do you look so sad?"

The first wave says, " You don't understand! We are all going to crash! All of us waves are going to be nothing! Isn't it terrible?"

The second wave says, "No, you don't understand. You're not a wave, you're part of the ocean."

2009-09-06T12:15:00.003+08:00

There comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama and the people who create it...and surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good.
After all, life is too short to be anything but happy.

<3

2009-09-05T19:15:00.001+08:00

Urgh

2009-08-19T22:30:00.000+08:00

I can't stand the noise here.
Fuckit.

5 Things In My Handbag

2009-08-16T02:00:00.002+08:00

iPod Classic
Lip moisturizer
Old movie tickets
2 mobile phones
Purse

5 Happy Food

2009-08-12T22:33:00.004+08:00

Waffles Ice cream
Peanut Butter Sandwich
Dark Chocolate
Maple Pecan Cereal
Raspberry Dark Chocolate Donut

Warwick Avenue

2009-08-05T13:43:00.001+08:00

When I get to Warwick Avenue
Meet me by the entrance of the tube
We can talk things over little time
But promise me you wont stand by the light

When I get to Warwick Avenue
Please draw the past and be true
Don't say we're okay
Just because I'm here
You hurt me bad but I wont shed a tear

I'm leaving you for the last time baby
You think you're loving,
But you don't love me
And I've been confused
Outta my mind lately
You think you're loving,
But I want to be free, baby
You've hurt me.

When I get to Warwick Avenue
We'll spend an hour but no more than two
Our only chance to speak once more
I showed you answers, now here's the door

When I get to Warwick Avenue
I'll tell baby there we're through

Cause I'm leaving you for the last time baby
You think you're loving,
But you don't love me
And I've been confused
An outta my mind lately
You think you're loving,
But you don't love me
I want to be free, baby
You've hurt me.

All the days spent together
I wish for better,
And I didn't want the train to come
Now it's departed, I'm broken hearted
Seems like we never started
All those days spent together
When I wished for better
And I didn't want the train to come.
No, no.

You think you're loving
But you don't love me
I want to be free, baby
You've hurt me
You don't love me
I want to be free
Baby you've hurt me

The Orientation

2009-08-02T18:58:00.002+08:00

He talks instead of chewing, laughs with his mouth open, delivers a passionate thought through a mouthful of egg salad, the little yellow pieces spewing from his teeth.

It cracks me up. The whole time I know him, I have two overwhelming desires:
to hug him and to give him a napkin.

I Gotta Have This!!!

2009-07-29T23:47:00.002+08:00

D:

2009-07-22T23:14:00.000+08:00

I hope this isn't my downfall...I have yet reached the peak.

Kop this from Mr Cai's blog.......

2009-07-22T00:11:00.000+08:00

A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.

SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?'
DAD: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the man.
SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?'
DAD: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?' the man said angrily.
SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'
DAD: 'If you must know, I make $50 an hour.'
SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.
SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $25?'

The father was furious, 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities.'
The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.
The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?
After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down , and started to think:
Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $25.00 and he really didn't ask for money very often The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.

'Are you asleep, son?' He asked.
'No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.
'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the man. 'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $25 you asked for.'
The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you daddy!' he yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.
The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.
The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.
'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the father grumbled.
'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied.
'Daddy, I have $50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.'

The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little son, and he begged for his forgiveness.
It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts. Do remember to share that $50 worth of your time with someone you love.
Have we forgotten what is really important in life? Too caught up in money, personal
ambitions, and forgot how to enjoy and appreciate the sweet simplicities in life?
If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of hours. But the family & friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.

2009-06-07T22:55:00.001+08:00

我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍
我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的

Bitches In Tokyo

2009-05-16T18:40:00.000+08:00

You can write my place
Out of the life you make
And all the things that mattered
When you knew my face
Cross off all the ways I failed you
'Cause I failed you
But I'm still in your blood
You're still in my blood

A time when all your mistakes
Made sense, you needed it
A time when all the lying
Simply passed as sin
All this sabotage you bring
Well, I can't take it
'Cause I just want you back
I just want you back

Temporary battles
Can take up half your life
How you dig your bed
Will it help you sleep at night?
Forgiveness like a blanket
That you want to forget
But you still crumble at my name
You still crumble at my name

A time when all your mistakes
Made sense, you needed it
A time when all the lying
Simply passed as sin
All this sabotage you bring
Well, I can't take it
'Cause I just want you back
I just want you back

Saturday

2009-05-16T11:22:00.001+08:00

I don't know why I'm always drawn to things that I know can't be good for me...

Weekend rant

2009-05-10T00:48:00.002+08:00

Hi all, I know I haven't been blogging.
But in case u're wondering, I'm doing fine. (I think I've said "fine" too many times today?)
Anw, I adore the people who are genuinely concerned...thanks.

Now, why do I sound so worn out when something good is unexpectedly happening to me?

How's work u ask me?
Work Sucks.
With capital S.

I'm still struggling to find my focus at work.
My daily ritual starts before 7am and hardly ends before 7pm.
Last month, I scored the top for being late and was fined $120. No joke!!
Extra hardwork is still not paying off. Not just whining, but I really have been feeling exhausted D:
The office is also very quiet this week......
Lynne & Leo & Molly quited. Stanley & Annette on MC. Vincent flew to Japan.
Work becomes tough especially when people who are with you through the hard times choose to leave. A few less shoulders to lean on to.
I certainly am missing these certain people but I believe every thing happens for a reason....hopefully something good like a better job offer comes along.
On a happier note, new colleagues will be coming in 2 weeks time. That should be fun..got people to bully!

Helppp

2009-04-13T00:08:00.000+08:00

Can someone tell me what to use or how you clean your laptop keyboards???

EDIT:
I'm so desperate I used the newly bought hand sanitizer. Smells good though!
I like to think my keyboards are 99% germ free like the label on the hand sanitizer promises.

Just a thought...

2009-04-11T01:53:00.002+08:00

How would you define success?
Seems like the word is closely associated with the amount of money you earn.

40%

2009-04-11T01:47:00.003+08:00

My patience is running out with time.
I don't even have patience to speak of in the first place.
You know I'm still waiting and I don't need pretentious small talks.

It's either we move forward or we move on.

Hi

2009-04-06T23:14:00.003+08:00

I just needa meet one nice guy.
One who doesn't make me cry.

I don't get it when people say to give them space.
It's senseless. What space? No one is suffocating you obviously.
It's the dumb-est statement ever said.

Graduation

2009-04-06T22:36:00.002+08:00

Ahhhhh.
Who knew graduation ceremony can be such a hassle? Why are they making us pay for the stupid rode anyway...like it's that important. In fact, it looks damn ugly please.

Lao niang not going.
It's on a work day lor.

Besides, they won't let me graduate till I pay my $0.60 library fines.
Lame. -_-

Start

2009-04-01T20:43:00.002+08:00

New job means setting new goals.
I suddenly wish I know how to drive.
I'm also mentally exhausted...shall go shower...kbai.

Benefits of ginger

2009-03-30T02:44:00.002+08:00

The other day I felt very bloated and actually had to force dinner now. The weather also made me feel sorta nauseous. My mum made me this hot ginger tea and I was skeptical at first how that could help, but to my amazement, I felt significantly better. So...I went to google ginger and this is what I've found:

	Ginger can block the effects of prostaglandin - a substance that cause inflammation of the blood vessels in the brain and can lead to migraines.
	Ginger was found to be effective for relieving the severity of nausea
	Many women claim that ginger tea helps rid them of menstrual cramps.
	It has anti-inflammatory properties that can lessen the pain of rheumatoid arthritis.
	Well known for its warming action on the upper respiratory tract, so it has been used to treat colds and flu.
	It has been found to be effective in cramps caused by stomach gas. Ginger also stimulates digestion.
	As a mood enhancer, ginger's cineole content may help contribute to stress relief.
	It is a great mouth freshener

If you actually took time to read through the above, ginger tea is good stuff! I wonder why everybody worships green tea (not that I don't like green tea) and nobody mentions ginger tea. I must say it's not exactly a pleasant taste at first mouthful, a taste you would acquire due to a lingering "spicy" sensation.

Bah, you're probably not interested in ginger like I do, or that work starts in 2 days. I don't know how I am going to wake up at 6.30am everyday. Heck, I needa get things done and stop procrastinating.

The weather makes me cranky.

2009-03-29T14:01:00.001+08:00

We almost always have a 3-step conversation that goes like this:

1. How are you?
2. What ya up to?
3. Are you sleeping soon?

Stranger than strangers.

Updates

2009-03-25T16:27:00.005+08:00

About a month since I last updated my blog.
That's cuz nothing interested has happened haha.

I have been rotting at home most of the days and I can't complain.
Even with no work or school, I still feel like I have a thousand things to do somehow!
Watched tons of movies that I can't even keep track. Couldn't get enough of youtubes too. I also ate more peanut butter sandwiches a week than I can ever imagine and still not get sick of it. =x
First, because bread and peanut butter is always available at my house. Second, because Kinemat STILLLLLLL owes me half month allowance and I'm terribly broke. NOT COOL.

I have also been working as a weekly (only on tuesdays) assistant teacher at a childcare centre for 3 weeks now. It's a pretty ok job, not stressful and I get to scold people heh heh. But I also came to know I suck terribly in han yu pin yin!!!

Feeling guilty for bumming around at home for like 1.5 moths, I had also sent about 10 over resumes to companies which only 3 replied and arranged for interviews.
Yesterday, I just accepted the job offer as Advertising Executive at Activa Media and will be starting work in April (6 more days to nua!). I was pretty excited about signing my first employment contract and the fact that they provide a phone and transport allowance! With 100 applicants fighting for a few positions, I'm surprised they had selected me for a second interview with the GM. Looks like that Professional Preparation module did come in use after all! The title sounds nice, but really, it's basically corporate sales and I'll be running about. It's not exactly my ideal job (once upon a time, I have dozens of ambitions and among them is to be a Tai Tai :D) but pays well enough. Money is....motivation!
I'll be missing my flamingo pink laptop and playing bball though. D:

The result slip came in last night and well, it didn't felt like it could do much for my uni applications. All the talk about internship programme pulling your grades up by a major difference is nonsense. If you know how the GPA is calculated, you would realise that an A probably shifts you up by that thankful 0.1 the most?

Oh. A few days back, I was doing spot cleaning - this time at where I dump my cosmetic and beauty products. When organizing and throwing away emptied containers, I realized I'm probably one of those makeup junkies. I have more than 5 items for moisturizers, mascaras, blushes, and lip colors! @_@ That's probably more than what a normal Singaporean girl owns, right?
I also like the idea of collecting makeup IF I'm like super duper rich or something. So, the next time you wanna get me a present, cosmetic is a very safe idea. :D
Anyway, they are now neatly stored in a mini 4-layer drawer that was originally for my accessories. I think I'm wayyyy pass my accessory obsession days already? There are so many accessories I hardly wear and put aside in a cardboard box. Nowadays, it's just watch and ear stud for me.

Hmmmm...what else.
I had trouble sleeping lately.
Last night, I got attacked by mosquitoes (feels like more than 10 bites!) and the itch was so horrible I was kept wide awake...Chao turbaaaaaan!!!
Ok. I think that's enough for an entry.
More rants next time, maybe I'll show you my makeup stash :D

Junkie Week

2009-02-27T20:12:00.002+08:00

One Tree Hill Season 5
Fast Food Nation
My Blueberry Nights
American Pie presents Band Camp
All The Boys Love Mandy Lane
Taken
Traitor
Doubt

2009-02-27T20:10:00.000+08:00

Lesson learned.
Never gamble with greed.